Ahhh today I had my first mammogram! I was a little nervous, because I was worried it might mess up my implants or hurt. Although I had a mastectomy on my right side, my oncologist had requested that I still get a mammogram on that side. Luckily my technician was very nice and didn’t put a lot of pressure on that side. Since my left side still has breast tissue, she did put more pressure on that side. Let me tell you…it was uncomfortable! I mean your boob is literally smushed! It only last a couple minutes, but I was scared to breathe because I didn’t want to mess it up and have to do it again. The good news is that my implants survived a mammogram and everything looked normal!
After the mammogram, I had to get a breast ultrasound on my left breast. I’ve had one of these before. I wasn’t nervous until the technician kept taking multiple images of my armpit. After she finished she said, “let me go show these to the doctor.” It felt like she was gone foooooreeeveeer! The whole time, my imagination was running wild. I was literally preparing for the worst and thinking about how I would tell my husband that the cancer came back. After what felt like a century, the doctor finally knocked on the door. He told me that my lymph node was slightly abnormal. My heart skipped a beat. He continued to say that he wasn’t that concerned about it and that it could be caused by multiple things (like an infection or bug bite). Sigh of relief. If the doctor’s not concerned about it then I shouldn’t be either, right? Well, that’s easier said then done. For the next hour, I replayed the conversation I had with the doctor in my head. I couldn’t stop my mind from thinking about the worst case scenario. I eventually calmed down and reminded myself that I’m overreacting. I have to go back in six months to get it checked out. Until then, I’m just going to try not to think about it and enjoy each day!